Love the sun, afraid of the suit

I wait all year, from the last swim in the lake until the first, for Summer. It is my favorite season and I realize without the other 3 my appreciation would probably not be so great. Nonetheless, I love it! But, the older I get the harder and more daunting it seems to put on a bathing suit. When I was a kid, we lived across the street from the neighborhood pool and I would sleep in my swim team uniform, a green speedo, to be ready for my busy day. I slipped on flip-flops(we still called them thongs back then), threw my towel around my neck and made the journey to the pool. Pretty sure I spent all day there until I got hungry or the street lights came on, whichever came first.

Then, we moved to Lake Chelan when I was 12 and I still recall the urgency to get on a suit and head to the water. And, in all those years and places I never remember feeling insecure about being half-naked. Jump ahead to current times and WOW, what a difference.

I force myself to have an "I don't care" kind of attitude but that's only reflected on the outside. On the inside, I am insecure and shameful. Does this insecurity really stem from TV and magazines? I don't know. How much is nature and how much in nurture? And, will I reach a point in my life where I REALLY won't care??? Do other women feel this way?

The bottom line is, I'm still gonna wear my bathing suit and embrace all Summer has to offer...water, sun and fun. If ever I reach my goal of a true bikini body I will all too proudly post a photo to brag. Until then, you can find me in the lake from May-September, cellulite and all:)

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